This isn't a pro-ana blog or anything, i just have no one to talk to. i just need an outlet for my consuming thoughts. no rude messages please. i already know what a piece of fat ugly disgusting shit i am. I'm here to talk if anyone needs help :)
Sorry I’ve been away for a while guys (not that anyone really missed me lol) but I’ve been trying to recover for a year on and off now, and I realize that recovering is just my excuse for binging. Although i hate the part of my eating disorder that makes me starve myself, it at least makes me feel good about my self, for me eating is just a gateway to hell. I can’t take it anymore I’ve gained so much weight since my “recovery” aka binging periods. I know that going back to my old ways will help me become a better person in all aspects.
I’m tired of being so fat. I’m tired of being ugly. I’m tired of being last choice. I’m tired of being treated like shit. I’m tired of trying so hard and not getting anything out of it. I’m just so fucking done.